Between a rock and a crazy place

How can life give me what I want if I don't give it any guidelines?
The times that I have been very clear about what I want, I got it, or something like it.  Sometimes getting what I wanted just proved that I didn't want it at all and then I had to come up with something else to want.
Today I saw posted online a job that I had twice interviewed for.  This was a bit of blow as I felt the slap of rejection because it was soooo black and white in front of me,  "We interviewed some people for this job and we didn't like ANY of them so we are back advertising."  I wanted to be like, what about me?  You didn't love me with all your heart and soul?  Why arn't you falling all over yourselves to hire me?????
I felt sad for a bit.  I had hoped to get the job not only because I don't like my current job, but it meant a move to a new city, closer to my boyfriend and away from my current living situation, which is fancy and in a great location but...I live with my mama. 
Then it occurred to me.  I don't want that job.  I didn't like the office, which was depressing and empty.  I didn't like the location.  I didn't even really like what they were doing.  But again, I had other motives.  This isn't just me being like, "What they don't like me? Well they ugly anyway!"  I swear.  But it made me focus more on things I do want. 
I would love a job I could walk or bike to.  I would like to have my own place again, which means I would need to leave NYC, which I am fine with since I can always come and crash at mama's phat pad.  I would be closer to bf but not too close (still need my space).  I love fresh starts.  I used to move every year in LA just to get them.  They always give me new direction and I try new things and all that shit.  It's good for me.  I tend to get into a rut too fast (lazy?)
So I am telling life, I want to move to New Haven.  I want a job I will enjoy (at least until my real dream job gets off the ground) and I want to be able to walk or bike to it!  Also I already have the apt all picked out.  So let's get this party started life.  I'll apply to some jobs and you take care of the rest?  Muchas Gracias!